Playing solitaire in restaurants
Boundaries I'm testing em
No one's really watching still
I sense that
I've been messing up
Human but day by day
I'm feeling like I'm less of one
Sent all my best friends
presents yet
I'm disappointing everyone
Got no direction someone
summon Nora Ephron
Beer pong's how I learned
the capital of Lebanon
Basically we're Lennon John
young and dead and gone
Whiskey tipsy keep on slipping
don't know which end of the
bed I'm on
Calories Valeries in malls
smoking on Cali weed
How can you complain
when you've made up
all your realities
Ballerinas balancing
validating maladies
Barfing up their
salad greens par
for mister balanchine
I text a lot of boys
but I rarely fuck em
Ducking clouds breaking down
got my head up in an oven
Shut my mouth blacking out yeah
my brain is fucking
bludgeoned
Though I've had my doubts
I know my stuff is straight
disgusting
And I mean that in the best way
Flipping shit like burgers
or fake furs or a sex change
Right onto the next phase
got my buddies in the backseat
Don't like what I do
then get your lips up off
my ass cheek
Rocks in my shoes stones
in my pockets
Lost and confused cold
and forgotten
Yeah that's me
I try to look alive
but I'm half asleep
Rocks in my shoes stones
in my pockets
Lost and confused cold
and forgotten
Yeah that's me
I try to look alive
but I'm half asleep
Baby's got a nosebleed
talking to a lead pipe
Strangers think they know me
photos of my best side
Fit into my old jeans
haven eaten in like
3 days you say I'm looking
sick well shit you're dead right
Father's vices but my mama's
heart so I've feeling like
Penitent a million
nights sipping
on these miller lights
Wishing it was back to mash
and after class
and pillow fights
Feeling violated
so I memorized
the Bill of Rights
Kids I grew up
with perspective busted
and now like half of them are
fat that's fucking justice
Swear I'm on the cusp
of something great least
I hope I am Trying to
get a couple butts
to shake til I'm broke again
Compliments they're never
sinking in I'm drinking gin
And wondering why every night
I bend over the sink again
Thinking I'm in love
so my irises been twinkling
But he don't feel the same
guess I'm permanently
single then
My anxiety been fucking
with me awfully
Should I be taking medications
doctor probably
Tummy's bum need
an endoscopy
Wanted everything under
the sun guess
I'll settle for some
Foster's Freeze
But life's gravy uh I'm trying
to find a man and hop
in his Mercedes
All my no ways been turning
into maybes
I thought I told you
I was fucking crazy
Rocks in my shoes stones
in my pockets
Lost and confused cold
and forgotten
Yeah that's me
I try to look alive
but I'm half asleep
Rocks in my shoes stones
in my pockets
Lost and confused cold
and forgotten
Yeah that's me
I try to look alive
but I'm half asleep