I tried so hard to catch
a falling knife
Within an inch of my life,
your blood rained on me
Now you see
I’ll never be the same again
I swear your shotgun
stare was rifled
My last breath stifled by the pain
that fanned out from your gaze
In your haze I’ll never be
the same again
Can you tell me what it means
as I lay here without breath
Wonderin’ where the hell
I’m going if I haven’t left
Oh, I’ll never be the same again
Tallies marking up the walls
for every time I missed your calls
Oh, I’m not ashamed
I stayed for so long
Marching to my own drum,
each throbbing beat is the sum
Of our confident misery,
drowning in our history, oh Lord
I tried so hard to catch a falling knife
Within an inch of my life,
your blood rained on me
Now I see I’ll never be the same again