It begins with a dark glowing ember
Something black burning its way out of me
Searing the flesh
Pain is the only thing i feel
Scars all i see
Oh no the fires burning my insides again
What can i do to silence my desires tonight
Flames consuming reason
Leaving only ashes left
You will catch me regretting my decision
I can't keep telling myself what i want to hear
I can't just close my eyes
I know that
it's killing me
And it's poisoning the best in me
What i see i don't want to believe
So let me tell you more
About the lies i lead
This is how i've chosen to douse the flames in gasoline
Broken dreams replaced by blackout memories in my head
Wreckage from the past haunts me, shakes me to the bone
I know it's over but i can't go home tonight
But after this i feel as empty as before
Feel the pain and yet i'm still begging for more
Masochistic nihilistic urging backward thought
My life's a mess and i can't find a way to fix it
I can't keep telling myself what I want to hear
I can't just close my eyes
I know that
It's killing me
And it's poisoning the best in me
What i see i don't want to believe
So let me tell you more
About the lies i lead
Calling calling out
The darkest reaches of my soul are riddled with self doubt
Crawling crawling out
My will to fight will more than suffice when others would lay down
It's only as dark as you make it
I know that
It's killing me
And it's poisoning the best in me
What i see i don't want to believe
So let me tell you more
About the lies i lead