I would build walls
For miles around me
Around anything that hurt
Any sensitive category
Kept love at an arms length
It was natural to me
You did not agree
You said things like Unhealthy
And I took on the task
Of changing my pattern
All you did was ask
And all the walls all came crashing
At a welcoming speed
I was convinced youd never hurt me
And I used to cling to the back of your mind
But I must have let go
At that moment in time
That she offered careless physical joy
Both bouncing my heart around
Like a cheap rubber toy
And after countless
Hours
Of crying
Trying to forgive you
Believe you
Grow a spine and leave you
Grieve you
Ive come to this conclusion
No one prepares you when choosing to stay
How to dare share a bed again
Keep demons at bay
She took something precious
That was just meant for me
Not for her eyes to see
And I used to cling to the back of your mind
But you must have let go
At that moment in time
That she offered careless physical joy
Both bouncing my heart around
Like a cheap rubber toy
And after countless
Hours
Of crying
Trying to forgive you
Believe you
Grow a spine and leave you
Grieve you
And after countless
Hours
Of crying
Trying to forgive you
Believe you
Grow a spine and leave you
Grieve you
Ive come to this conclusion
After all the years you invested in me
All the love, tears, and possibilities
I realize if the tables were turned around
You wouldnt leave me now