We drank bottled water together and talked business,
I think I played the right moves, You were looking over my shoulder,
As I went through the motions of another night.
And it was alright, because I thought I knew
who everybody was just by looking at them.
My heart is anywhere but here.
And how tired I was from the past couple weeks,
From the past couple years, well it hit me all at once.
On a balcony overlooking nothing, with snow falling all around,
I called just to say good-night.
And you hadn`t done anything wrong, really, it`s me not you.
I can`t believe how naive I was to think things
could ever be so simple. And can you live with
what you know about yourself,
When you`re all alone, behind closed doors,
The things we never said but we always knew were right there.
It`s got me on my knees in a bathroom,
Praying to a god I don`t even believe in,
Dear jesus...are you listening
If this is the one chance that really matters,
Don`t let me fuck this up. If you had told me about all this
when I was fifteen, I never would have believed it